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Friday, August 14, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Wavering Faith
::HUGE SIGH::
So, for the last few weeks, my faith has been wavering a bit. I know its wrong, but I cant help it. I prayed and prayed and begged and prayed so much.. for nothing. I know its not for nothing but that's the way it seems to me. Its been rough. Ive been telling everyone I'm fine.. I'm not. I keep telling myself that if I pray for the strenght to guide me through this, it will help. BUT, i prayed for my dad, and It didn't help, so why waist my time. Everyone says, well he is no longer suffering. Why did he have to suffer in the first place? Why him? He never hurt anyone. Never wronged anyone. Its just not fair. He has had to go through so much in his life, I don't understand it all!
So, that's where i am now. I just needed to get that out.
So, for the last few weeks, my faith has been wavering a bit. I know its wrong, but I cant help it. I prayed and prayed and begged and prayed so much.. for nothing. I know its not for nothing but that's the way it seems to me. Its been rough. Ive been telling everyone I'm fine.. I'm not. I keep telling myself that if I pray for the strenght to guide me through this, it will help. BUT, i prayed for my dad, and It didn't help, so why waist my time. Everyone says, well he is no longer suffering. Why did he have to suffer in the first place? Why him? He never hurt anyone. Never wronged anyone. Its just not fair. He has had to go through so much in his life, I don't understand it all!
So, that's where i am now. I just needed to get that out.
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